Soliders who have PTSD. In combat, you kill another person. You don't get arrested and thrown in jail, you get complements for it and perhaps a medal. That would certainly warp my mind.
Growing up in violence has a similar warping effect. Not that it is better or worse than combat PTSD, but it is sometime considered a more complex diagnosis because the context is embedded in everyday life--which is also true for civilians during war.
this time, i read straight through several segments in my email.. (and will be, unfortunately, longwinded here) ..from a few bits about "mall" to dreamlike rhyming to this inspection of past, present, and possible future violence.
i like mall, she's precise, certain, and gets so gutterally off on a "genie" thing... seems like a gaze at unreality, done by noticing foundational things, like crawling and that foot. ..like, a big-tall small-mall.
not to mention colonizers in several forms...
your rhyming loops around and never lets up even when it says it will ... the words falling into chants.
then a look at violence, which surrounds us all so much now, doesn't it?... i hate it, and there it is, a violent word - "hate" - because i've been too close to it, and there's this fear that flips to hate, just goes back and forth... frankly, reading your thoughts about it are helpful (to me) in this way of organizing things... there's action and reaction, and if i can just step back and fully realize my place in it,... well, we might reach a consisent equaliibrium?
almost forgot 1989, '98 etc. for a quick minute; would love to minimize some of those years ...
anyway - you plumbed deep each day, and that's a rare thing. ..thank you, writer.
I am very glad that this brought you something useful. Writing doesn't have to do that, of course, but it always pleases me when it does. I like to be helpful when I can.
I appreciate your thorough comments and do not read them as longwinded at all. To the contrary, they seem rather concise; you just have much to say. Which again, pleases me--both as a writer, naturally, but also simply for the conversation.
RIGHT ON, BABY!
Thanks, JBS.
Very well done.
Thank you, Arrian.
Soliders who have PTSD. In combat, you kill another person. You don't get arrested and thrown in jail, you get complements for it and perhaps a medal. That would certainly warp my mind.
Growing up in violence has a similar warping effect. Not that it is better or worse than combat PTSD, but it is sometime considered a more complex diagnosis because the context is embedded in everyday life--which is also true for civilians during war.
this time, i read straight through several segments in my email.. (and will be, unfortunately, longwinded here) ..from a few bits about "mall" to dreamlike rhyming to this inspection of past, present, and possible future violence.
i like mall, she's precise, certain, and gets so gutterally off on a "genie" thing... seems like a gaze at unreality, done by noticing foundational things, like crawling and that foot. ..like, a big-tall small-mall.
not to mention colonizers in several forms...
your rhyming loops around and never lets up even when it says it will ... the words falling into chants.
then a look at violence, which surrounds us all so much now, doesn't it?... i hate it, and there it is, a violent word - "hate" - because i've been too close to it, and there's this fear that flips to hate, just goes back and forth... frankly, reading your thoughts about it are helpful (to me) in this way of organizing things... there's action and reaction, and if i can just step back and fully realize my place in it,... well, we might reach a consisent equaliibrium?
almost forgot 1989, '98 etc. for a quick minute; would love to minimize some of those years ...
anyway - you plumbed deep each day, and that's a rare thing. ..thank you, writer.
I am very glad that this brought you something useful. Writing doesn't have to do that, of course, but it always pleases me when it does. I like to be helpful when I can.
I appreciate your thorough comments and do not read them as longwinded at all. To the contrary, they seem rather concise; you just have much to say. Which again, pleases me--both as a writer, naturally, but also simply for the conversation.